Jul. 6th, 2018

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“I gave my all in that performance, feeling that it’s OK if I die during the shooting.”

Those words were spoken during an interview for Ai no Mukidashi but it can be said this is applicable to every performance she's given thus far.

I don't know if there's ever going to be actress (or actor) that I'd love more than Mitsushima Hikari. Probably, never. 

I first saw her in Gomen ne Seishun! and I feel like ever since then, my life's changed. That's how much of an impact she's made on me, though I'd say a lot of it is due to her playing Toyama Futaba in Soredemo, Ikite Yuku. Her wisp-like appearance hides or rather subtly shows her incredible strength and it is a true wonder how she is such a force of nature despite how looks can be deceiving. 

I'll never forget the first time I saw her, while in character, completely break in the second last episode of Soredemo. The sheer anger pouring out from her body as she scrambles to land blows on her brother (played by the wonderful Kazama Shunsuke) as she loses all the patience and control she's managed to keep and suppress for so many years. The rage in her eyes.... It was amazing. Being only 17 at the time I first watched it, it really left a huge impression on me. I think it was probably then, that I knew I completely admired her as an actress and that I really fell for her. 

Fast forward to close to almost three years later and here I am, still in awe as ever of her. Right now, it's a waiting game since she's decided to go independent and left her agency not so long ago. The withdrawal is really bad! I do still have some of her works left which I've yet to watch but I really do want new content from her. Is it possible to miss someone you've never had connections to?! I guess, lmao. I last saw her in Kangoku no Ohimesama in which she played a Do-S prison guard (by the way, she portrayed it to a T, unsurprisingly). I'm hoping for subtitles for her film, Umibe no Sei to Shi, which was shown recently last year. It seems like the film was an important experience for her judging from the things I've read during her promotions. 

I don't know how long I'll have to wait for her next project, I'm still bummed about her exit from Kudokan's R&J butai but I'm trying to stay positive! She's continuously worked these past few years and she definitely could use a break. All I can do is hope she won't be gone for too long....... Until then... I'll probably do another rewatch of Gomen ne Seishun! lol.